So I have to go home alone and eat dinner by myself, because Deb is going out for her birthday with our friends Joy and Meagan. YAY!!! On the one hand I am really happy for my sweetie pie to go out and enjoy dinner with friends, but I am so co-dependent at the moment I know I'll be lonely. That is sad and I am not as co-dependant as all that sounds, but at the same time I am.
She and I have talked a lot about this and we have come to the realization that we need each other. Incase you were wondering we're ok with it. It's just a truth about us. The thing that bugs menus that I get jealous when she goes out by herself with friends because I wish I could be there with her and people. I am very social an sitting home alone is very contradictory to how I usually roll.
This is all shades of self obsessed right now but it is what it is. How do you get past that part of yourself, it's too much. Well I guess that's all. I am just desperate for some attention I suppose. Look at me, look at me!!!
Why aren't you going out with them?
ReplyDeleteBut yeah.. I know what you mean. James has his band and sometimes when I'm sitting home alone eating some weird meat from a can, I feel a little bad for myself. But I've actually grown to enjoy the alone time, even though I'm just like you and really would rather just be surgically attached to James at the hip.
When I get time alone at home, I like to run myself a bubble bath and watch all the shows that James doesn't like to watch. haha
So try to enjoy it hon.
/hugs!!